I am lost
in forever fears
of being alone
I live in an empty house
that used to be a home
I can’t sleep, can’t eat
I barely make it
day by day
I struggle in hoping
that this pain might go away
but it never does
I stare starry eyed
in admiration
of all the people in love
but then the memory of you haunts me again
all my lost trust
all the promises broken
all my emotions crushed
my heart devoured by the power
of self desire
decaying in a happiness that never was
I cower in my corner of self-pity
feeling sorry for myself
trying to gain the courage
to climb out of this pit of hell
but my dreams become worthless
and I see no reason to live
I have nothing to offer a world
that has nothing left to give