A Hard Taught Lesson

I was benevolent
not to mention somewhat eccentric
but I was never superficial
in our relationship
I loved you
before I met you
and I loved you
after you broke my heart
you taught me
more about myself
than I ever could
if there was a way
to repay you
you know that I would
I’m a changed man
a better man
my morals have caught up with me
I am not proud of what I have done
or the man I haad been
but perhaps this world of hurt
is karma’s way of kicking my ass
and if karma is out kicking ass
you better watch out
it’s not pretty what I’m going through
loving someone so much
like the way I loved you
then to have that world of hope
that world of happiness
ripped recklessly from your heart
all the pieces of what once was
glued carelessly back together with pain
I feel so empty inside
so hollow
yet so shallow
I was benevolent once
and look where it got me