Have You No Soul?

fuck this and everything you do to me
playing me like I’m your toy
been awake for 3 days
living off cheeseburgers and rice
broken my finger
my middle finger
so I can’t show you
just how I feel
honestly
why do you keep doing this to me
saying you love me
wanting to see me
pretending that you miss me
victimizing me with your lies
but I am smarter now
yet somehow
the hurt of my heart
overwrites my desire
to not let you hurt me again
with your little world of pretend
with these pseudo relationships
that last only when you see fit
have you no soul?