Love of Confusion

I’ve confused love for hate
been drunk for 3 weeks straight
knowing loneliness is now my fate
I’ve closed the mind that was awake
and I’ve seen what I can become
no longer a child so young
no longer so blind and so dumb
I now know what you are
you’re the pain in my scars
you’re the ache in my heart
you were once my shining star
now you’re death in the dark
our love was only an illusion
your orchestrated preclusion
an illustrated confusion
constructed from delusion
deteriorating diffusion
so now you’re an exclusion
from my heart’s seclusion
and I’ve come to the conclusion
found a cozy collusion
that we are no more
and I know
tomorrow I will awake
in a state of happiness
that I haven’t felt in years