my heart is dark
the kind of darkness
that makes sure you cannot see
and you can’t see inside
even if I let you
I have no feelings left to hide
they all died with her
in a blur
of love, of life
of everything
I ever was
blood flows black
as my veins pump only pain
the singing in my brain
that I can never go back
she doesn’t love me anymore
the angel of my salvation
left me, in a blur of pure damnation
of love, of life
of everything
I ever was
the devil of dreams
sees to it, that I will never forget
with his nightly gift, of despair
and soon loneliness becomes the air
that I breathe and writhe
in a pittle of pain, like no other
insuring that I suffer
in the blur
of nothingness
I ever was