{"id":231,"date":"2019-06-18T00:01:17","date_gmt":"2019-06-18T00:01:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/onyx23.net\/beats\/?p=231"},"modified":"2019-06-18T00:01:17","modified_gmt":"2019-06-18T00:01:17","slug":"the-curse-of-a-broken-heart","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/2019\/06\/18\/the-curse-of-a-broken-heart\/","title":{"rendered":"The Curse of a Broken Heart"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I am lost<br \/>\nin forever fears<br \/>\nof being alone<br \/>\nI live in an empty house<br \/>\nthat used to be a home<br \/>\nI can&#8217;t sleep, can&#8217;t eat<br \/>\nI barely make it<br \/>\nday by day<br \/>\nI struggle in hoping<br \/>\nthat this pain might go away<br \/>\nbut it never does<\/p>\n<p>I stare, starry eyed<br \/>\nin admiration<br \/>\nof all the people in love<br \/>\nbut then the memory of you haunts me again<br \/>\nall my lost trust<br \/>\nall the promises broken<br \/>\nall my emotions crushed<br \/>\nmy heart devoured by the power<br \/>\nof self desire<br \/>\ndecaying in a happiness that never was<\/p>\n<p>I cower in my corner of pity<br \/>\nfeeling sorry for myself<br \/>\ntrying to gain the courage<br \/>\nto climb out of this pit of hell<br \/>\nbut my dreams become worthless<br \/>\nand I see no reason to live<br \/>\nI have nothing to offer a world<br \/>\nthat has nothing left to give<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am lost in forever fears of being alone I live in an empty house that used to be a home I can&#8217;t sleep, can&#8217;t eat I barely make it<a href=\"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/2019\/06\/18\/the-curse-of-a-broken-heart\/\" class=\"more-link\"><span class=\"readmore\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">The Curse of a Broken Heart<\/span><\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-231","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-emotions"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/231","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=231"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/231\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=231"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=231"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=231"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}