{"id":237,"date":"2019-06-24T21:37:20","date_gmt":"2019-06-24T21:37:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/onyx23.net\/beats\/?p=237"},"modified":"2019-06-24T21:37:20","modified_gmt":"2019-06-24T21:37:20","slug":"my-heart-breaks-silently","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/2019\/06\/24\/my-heart-breaks-silently\/","title":{"rendered":"My Heart Breaks Silently"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I stand starry eyed, paralyzed<br \/>\nthe weight of fear, crushing<br \/>\nconstricting every tendon<br \/>\nand my body feels stuck<br \/>\nin a post mortum rigor mortis<br \/>\nunable to move, to speak<br \/>\nunable to hear anything<br \/>\nexcept the thump pump<br \/>\nof my fast paced pumping heart<br \/>\nas it echoes pulse mixed delirium through my head<br \/>\nI can see it, watch silently<br \/>\nas the world spins, tilted<br \/>\non magnetic axis<br \/>\nwatching as my life flashes<br \/>\nin sequence of 32 frames per second<br \/>\nwhen will it end, it should end now<br \/>\nnow that I have tasted the bitter taste of truth<br \/>\nthat I would gladly trade back in<br \/>\nfor the sweetness of your lies<br \/>\nas your mouth moves<br \/>\nslowly forming phrases that you are leaving me<br \/>\nit should end now<br \/>\nme, in this world of alone<br \/>\nrotating, slightly tilted, silently<br \/>\ndid you hear the breaking of my heart?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I stand starry eyed, paralyzed the weight of fear, crushing constricting every tendon and my body feels stuck in a post mortum rigor mortis unable to move, to speak unable<a href=\"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/2019\/06\/24\/my-heart-breaks-silently\/\" class=\"more-link\"><span class=\"readmore\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">My Heart Breaks Silently<\/span><\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-237","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-emotions"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/237","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=237"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/237\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=237"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=237"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=237"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}