{"id":251,"date":"2019-07-08T01:46:41","date_gmt":"2019-07-08T01:46:41","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/onyx23.net\/beats\/?p=251"},"modified":"2019-07-08T01:46:41","modified_gmt":"2019-07-08T01:46:41","slug":"a-promise-to-myself","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/2019\/07\/08\/a-promise-to-myself\/","title":{"rendered":"A Promise To Myself"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>oh how I like<br \/>\nhow you loved me with your lies<br \/>\nforsaken me eternally<br \/>\nwith the look of death upon eyes<br \/>\nand all this talk<br \/>\nabout us being soulmates<br \/>\nended up being just that<br \/>\ntalk<br \/>\nso what am I supposed to do?<br \/>\nforgive you?<br \/>\nafter what you have done!<br \/>\nyou don&#8217;t even deserve the words<br \/>\nI have to say <\/p>\n<p>\nso another bottle, another wasted night<br \/>\nand I drink to chase the pain away<br \/>\nand it angers me to the bone<br \/>\nthat I love you so much<br \/>\nI can&#8217;t help but to forgive you<br \/>\nbecause that&#8217;s what love is for<br \/>\nso just maybe<br \/>\nright now baby<br \/>\nI hate myself for loving you so much<br \/>\njust one more bottle<br \/>\nmy lonely hands shaking to clutch<br \/>\njust one more drink<br \/>\nto swallow the pain away<br \/>\njust one more dream<br \/>\nI need to have today<br \/>\njust one more promise<br \/>\nI need to make<br \/>\nthat never again<br \/>\nwill I allow my heart to break<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>oh how I like how you loved me with your lies forsaken me eternally with the look of death upon eyes and all this talk about us being soulmates ended<a href=\"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/2019\/07\/08\/a-promise-to-myself\/\" class=\"more-link\"><span class=\"readmore\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">A Promise To Myself<\/span><\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-251","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-emotions"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/251","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=251"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/251\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=251"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=251"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=251"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}