{"id":259,"date":"2019-07-16T05:35:56","date_gmt":"2019-07-16T05:35:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/onyx23.net\/beats\/?p=259"},"modified":"2019-07-16T05:35:56","modified_gmt":"2019-07-16T05:35:56","slug":"the-understanding-of-things","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/2019\/07\/16\/the-understanding-of-things\/","title":{"rendered":"The Understanding of Things"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>the hardest thing for me to understand<br \/>\nis the fact I will never understand<br \/>\nall things<br \/>\nsee<br \/>\nI have this thirst for knowledge<br \/>\nnot like that of the normal scholar<br \/>\nbut obsessive<br \/>\nsome might even add compulsive<br \/>\nmore than a want or need<br \/>\nI have to know all things<br \/>\neverything<br \/>\nfrom minor to major<br \/>\nevery single detail<br \/>\nof how things work<br \/>\nand why<br \/>\nthat is the only thing that drives me now<br \/>\nlove is too afraid<br \/>\nto look me in the eye<br \/>\nfor fear of the secrets I will see<br \/>\nall my friends, my closest friends<br \/>\nhave been dead for years<br \/>\nauthors, poets, scientists<br \/>\nall those who I hold so dear<br \/>\nbut yet I wake up in this madhouse<br \/>\nthis world of shit and stone<br \/>\nthat makes even less sense<br \/>\nthan the day before<br \/>\nwhich brings tears<br \/>\nto my eyes that cry for a reason to laugh again<br \/>\ndying to understand<br \/>\nwhy a perfect god<br \/>\ncould make a flaw such as man<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>the hardest thing for me to understand is the fact I will never understand all things see I have this thirst for knowledge not like that of the normal scholar<a href=\"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/2019\/07\/16\/the-understanding-of-things\/\" class=\"more-link\"><span class=\"readmore\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">The Understanding of Things<\/span><\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-259","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-strange"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/259","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=259"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/259\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=259"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=259"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=259"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}