{"id":280,"date":"2019-08-06T17:46:20","date_gmt":"2019-08-06T17:46:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/onyx23.net\/beats\/?p=280"},"modified":"2019-08-06T17:46:20","modified_gmt":"2019-08-06T17:46:20","slug":"forgive-forget","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/2019\/08\/06\/forgive-forget\/","title":{"rendered":"Forgive &#038; Forget"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m a wash-out, and I&#8217;m a drunk<br \/>\nleft all my happiness behind me<br \/>\nburied in this dusty trunk<br \/>\nof dirty pictures of a dirty girl<br \/>\nticket stubs of movies we saw<br \/>\nand trips taken half way around the world<br \/>\n2 years full of memories<br \/>\nnow locked up, blocked up and blacked out<br \/>\nwho am I kidding?<br \/>\nI can pretend that I have no feelings<br \/>\nI can pretend that I do not hurt<br \/>\nbut as much as it hurt when you hurt me<br \/>\nI hurt so much more knowing that I hurt you<br \/>\nsee I&#8217;m still the same, just a little bit older<br \/>\nwith this haunting thought<br \/>\nwhispering to me, oh I should have told her<br \/>\nbut I carelessly danced my charade<br \/>\nnot realizing the mistakes I have made<br \/>\nonly to find out, a moment to late<br \/>\nso all I can do is tell you I am sorry<br \/>\nand hope beyond hope<br \/>\nthat you will find it in your heart<br \/>\nto somehow forgive me<br \/>\nto once again look at me<br \/>\nwith some sort of sense of dignity<br \/>\nto once again see your eyes shine<br \/>\nthat beautiful sparkle I miss so miserably<br \/>\nsaying that you still love me ever so dearly<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m a wash-out, and I&#8217;m a drunk left all my happiness behind me buried in this dusty trunk of dirty pictures of a dirty girl ticket stubs of movies we<a href=\"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/2019\/08\/06\/forgive-forget\/\" class=\"more-link\"><span class=\"readmore\">Continue reading<span class=\"screen-reader-text\">Forgive &#038; Forget<\/span><\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-280","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-emotions"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/280","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=280"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/280\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=280"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=280"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/onyx23.net\/inthebeat\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=280"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}